Have you missed us lately? We'll be honest, when we don't have any comments, it makes us feel like we have been forgotten which in turn does not motivate us to post anything. While I know that is not true (because several of you have told me in an email that you're still checking it), it still makes us feel that way. Sorry....my "thinker" has been all messed up these days anyway!
I have been really struggling the past week (or past 3 months!) with all the changes in my life. I have so much free time on my hands that I am bored a lot and the fact that this house I am in is so small doesn't help. I really know what cabin fever is! I actually miss working which surprises me. My visit with Mom was such a "high" that I fell way down in the "valley" so to speak, when she left. I'll admit that there are days that I am just mad at God for sending us out here. Do you ever get mad at God when He's doing things that your flesh disagrees with? I hope I am not the only one! When we moved to Cullman, as hard as it was to leave Pickens Co., I knew without a shadow of a doubt that that was where God wanted us to be. He confirmed it in so many ways that it was so clear. Here, I haven't felt that....it's been hard but yet I am more spiritually mature than I was then so God knows that I can handle the challenges of being here. Anyway, because I have been focused on myself instead of God's purposes, I really didn't want to read His word. I wanted to "woller" in my own self pity. However, with some encouragement from a special mentor of mine, I have dove back in His word as a sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving. I started in Psalm 1 and read it over and over and over. It's short but boy was it talking about me! It says "Blessed (or Happy) is the one that delights in the law of the Lord and meditates on it" for the ones that don't are like "chaff that the wind blows away". If I am not meditating on His word...His promises....I will stay defeated. I will stay unhappy. I will not be the wife, mother, and pastor's wife He has called me to be. I know that there are so many situations in the lives of my friends right now that are worse than what I am experiencing, but whatever your situation, that is real for you and BIG for you, even if others may not think so. Get in His word and meditate on His promise and He will carry you through it......
We have an offer on our house. Why there is no exclamation mark is that it is below what the payoff to the house is and because Mike wants to get out from under the debt, we will probably accept it and still owe to pay the realtor's commission. This is also hard for me to understand and I cried as I asked Mike "where is our blessing in obedience?" I loved that house and that town more than anything and sacrificed it to serve here and why can't we even break even on it? Of course Mike reminded me of Matthew 6:20-21 that says "But store up yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not detroy". I am so fleshy and I know that! Ok, this is a sacrifice of praise as I say "Thank you God that we have any kind of offer in this economy, thank you that we will be out from under a huge debt and into a smaller one that's more affordable, and thank you that we didn't have to go into forclosure which is what many people are having to do due to job layoffs."
I sure hope all my confessions will help at least one person who reads this! I am such a weakling but where I am weak, He is strong....Praise God!
So....here's whats been going on....
I have people that I can actually call friends now...Kyle and Sandi who both come to play group. Sandi is my exercise partner so I thank God for her because she has kept an extra 10 lbs off of me from being so lazy! Kyle is so opposite of me but has an outgoing personality and has really reached out to me and empathized with me being new here. We had a spiritual discussion the other day and I am positive now that she does not have a personal relationship with God. However, she does not recognize that (yet) and says she is at peace with God. God put us together to help each other in different ways so please pray for her and for me as God uses me to witness to her. She has been coming to church for a month now but still remains skeptical of "church". I love her to death though and can't wait until she recognizes her need for God!
We are starting a women's bible study tomorrow on Zecheriah. It's going to be very challenging for me to enjoy. Pray for me through this and if you want to know why...you'll just have to call me to ask me!
The boys are done with their basketball in Ignacio now! Whew...that's a relief! Now Mason is playing in the Durango league with the Bayfield boys on Saturdays and enjoying that. Landon still prays for God to send him a friend at school. He has been getting to swim at Ignacio everyday for the past two weeks for PE so that has been exciting for him. Haven is obsessed with Spongebob right now and is maturing so fast. She cleaned her room the other day without being asked for the first time and boy was it spotless!! She was so excited! I really build her up now and she loves to help Mama clean! She had a little accident the other day....Mike was pulling the kids on their sleds behind the snowmobile and went a little too fast around a curve and Haven fell off onto her face....bless her heart...it looks pitiful.....
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In my sister-in-law Jen's words..."God love her!"
I'll wait and let Mike blog about church happenings! I have talked to 4 friends this week who are being attacked by Satan and worldly issues. Hang in there and run to God's word for your guidance(I certainly had to!). It's your only armor.....don't let Satan win. Love you all!